Can't Sleep!

Well...I am a night owl, but for the past few nights I've not been able to sleep at all. My mind keeps rambling on. My thoughts are so loud and I'm restless. There are several reasons for it. One is a girl. This comes as no surprise to some of you. Especially you guys. You know when you get hooked and your heart hurts whether you're with her or not. That's where I am, but there's more to the story. For the past few months I've been pursued by someone who is greater than life itself. God has been calling to me in a special way. I can't lie, I haven't been 100% consistent, but I'm growing in my walk with Him every day. I've been convicted, though. As my feelings grow for this beautiful woman that He has set in my path, I begin to realize where I fail Him. At this point, all I want is to be able to tell her how I feel and be reminded myself that she thinks of me too. As I long for this, I become sad at the realization that God wants that from us too. He loves us more than we could ever begin to imagine. We get so caught up in our own lives that we don't stop to think about that. He blesses us daily, and we don't even blink. Many people look at Christianity and don't understand it. They think we have this religious code that we have to follow, and that we have to act perfect. That's not it at all. It's not about religion. Our job as Christians, the reason we are here, is to have a personal relationship with God. He created us! When we get depressed about being lonely or we want someone to return our love, we must consider that God wants that too. He is pursuing us, and He wants us to return His love. There is no way we could ever meet Him halfway or even come close, His love for us is so great. As I thought about this tonight and how I'm falling head over heels for this girl, I realized that I want to fall the same way for my Creator. Jars of Clay sings one of my absolute favorite songs, and when I drive home tomorrow I'm going to blare it out the windows. It's called Love Song for a Savior. The chorus is simple, it just repeats this phrase four times: "I want to fall in love with you!" That is my prayer to the Father this morning. I want to be completely swept up in Him. I want Him to be my obsession, my greatest treasure. Only if I learn to love Him back, will I truly be able to love anyone in this life.